What am I?

Am i:
Neive?
Unexperienced?
Supid?

What? What am I? I don't understand why my company failed to tell me my friend was "let go" - even if it was due to the economy. My friend was one of the first three I made during my move to Arizona. Now don't get my wrong, I fully understand WHY he was let go - unreliable, made the most - but he also delivered the most (in his defense). He was my friend, so forgive me for wanting to defend him a bit. Yes, he was unreliable. Yes, it would irritate me. You better beleive it would irritate me - but if i was asked, I would rather have him on my team than be without him. I am bitter, sad, upset, and today was the first day all that came to a head. He was let go Monday of last week, last week being Thanksgiving. Not much happens Thanksgiving week as we all know. So today was my frist day in dealing with his departure...it did not go as well as hoped. So here i am...writing y'all...fixin to grab a beer. I don't know how to handle it right now. He is one of my closest friends...and was a major part of my personal and work life. Work life alone right now is sucking. Personal - he knows i am a constant is his life...so that is a plus. But work...I didn't see it coming at all, blind sited. Not to dramatize it, but I am that kid standing out in the winter white cold starring off into space...so...

What am I?