Arms up

Today, well tonight, I realized how I have felt this weekend. I have lived in Arizona now for a month and a half. Leaving the DC area, I knew, was the right thing for me. However, moving farther away from home was/is hard, and I knew it would be. Family mainly in upstate NY, parents in the DC area and good friends in North Carolina...yea the move was going to be tough. To this day, I will still tell you that it was the right decision. I am getting back to the Kelly I know and want to be.

I went to a Church service tonight that had a great message, and amazing music - even my brother would have liked it - that is how good it was. But I left and cried. I was sitting there by myself while everyone was talking to their friends. I am beginning to really dislike doing things by myself. Since I only lived in DC for three years, I didn't know a lot of people. But I had my friends. It takes time, and I know I will make some friends...but today, this weekend, I put my arms up. Please don't post that I will eventually meet people, I know I will meet people. Just tonight, leaving Church I was just tired of trying to be strong and I broke down. But I will get there and continue to be strong.

I read a post before Church about music. And you all know I can't live without music, so this post was fitting. It was about relating main points in your life to a particular song. My move to Arizona fits perfectly with "I'm Moving On" by Rascal Flatts. As tough as it might be, I am gaining who I am back, slowly. Soon I will be as happy as I was (friend wise) in Rochester. I will meet a Sean, a Willy, a Christine, a Kacey, a Matty...you know. (Notice how I didn't say Kyle.) Once I have that, Arizona will be one great place. Just please don't let me make anymore friends that leave me at a bar. And no, the one friend I had moving out here hasn't called to apologize and no I have not contacted him. Although, half of me would like to write and tell him how much he hurt me by leaving me somewhere I had never been before. But hey, it can only make me stronger...right?

Alright, I am off to make some dinner. Pork wrapped in BACON!!! Since my co-worker calls me pudgy, I thought I would try to gain some weight so that would actually hold true! :) Have a wonderful week all.

Well the weekend is over, time for a new week. As for what this week will bring, we will have to wait and see. I hope everyone in Rochester had a great snowy weekend!