All in one week...

The past couple weeks I have been extremely tired after work, bringing me to go home, shower, and crash on the couch for a couple hours. (Moving the company I work for in the hot Arizona heat gets you so very dehydrated and exhausted!) I was channel surfing a couple weeks ago and came across a show with John Ritter in it, and of course I had to stop and watch. While in syndication, I never watched 8 Simple Rules For Dating My Teenage Daughter, and I found myself home watching it day after day. Monday I was home early, showered and hit my usual spot on the couch. Monday was a different day, I took a call from an ex-boyfriend that I haven't talked to since I moved here. We usually play catch-up every couple months, and it was that time again. His news was that he was engaged, and I did my best to give him the best "congratulations" I could deliver while hiding the fact I wanted to cry. The sad part, he didn't seem excited at all. Anywho, I was sad - my first true love is getting married...although I am glad he is happy! After all, that is what you want for your friends. At six o'clock, I proceeded to turn on 8 Simple Rules as usual and John Ritter's character made me laugh. At 6:30, the second episode came on, yet it wasn't funny. It was the episode made after John Ritter had passed away - needless to say, I was balling my eyes out. The two episodes that aired after his death really honed in on the greatness of family.

Last night, I was watching season 4 of Scrubs, episode "my cake" and it hit me - John Ritter played JD's father and this episode was in remembrance of him. All this in a four day stretch. John Ritter was one of my favorite actors, he amazing ability to make people laugh in his career was admirable. Watching a the few episodes that were made after he passed was a good reminder of what life is about. family, love, health, togetherness - and I am blessed to have all that in my life.

Quote to Ponder

"A man's ethical behavior should be based effectually on sympathy, education, and social ties; no religious basis is necessary. Man would indeeded be in a poor way if he had to be restrained by fear of punishment and hope of reward after death."
~Albert Einstein

This quote is an interesting one. One that I would stand behind if asked. I believe that one day, we will be standing in front of God where he is holding the book of life asking us why we should be entered into Heaven, and most, if not all, of us would like to be able to inform Him how we used our lives to better ourselves and others. However, I don’t believe that we should live our lives in fear of this day. This shouldn’t be our main goal to do good.

My hope is that people are opening their eyes to the world, becoming knowledgeable of the events that are taking place. Whether or not you support the war, are you supporting the troops that are risking their lives every day so we can live our lives freely? Are you finding ways to assist others in areas you might excel in? Not everyone is a giver…but you may be an encourager or a teacher…are you doing your part? We have all grown up with some sort of education, are we using the information that we have been granted?

We all need open our eyes and take a look around. My friends are big on photography, and that is an exceptional thing. Are they seeing what they are taking pictures of? They are very talented people, with kind hearts – are they using their talents fully?

As for me…I would say that I am defiantly not a teacher!! I love to give and to encourage. The giving, I am in the process of finding an area to give. The encouragement, I am encouraging everyone to find their talent and share it with others. Take your past experiences, what you enjoyed or excelled in and see what you are able to come up with. Let us not live our lives in fear, but let us use what God gave us. Our education, our ability to open our eyes and see what is going on. For there is so much we can do that we are not doing.

Place in this World

The wind is moving
But I am standing still
A life of pages
Waiting to be filled
A heart that's hopeful
A head that's full of dreams
But this becoming
Is harder than it seems
Feels like I'm

Chorus:
Looking for a reason
Roaming through the night to find
My place in this world
My place in this world
Not a lot to lean on
I need Your light to help me find
My place in this world
My place in this world

If there are millions
Down on their knees
Among the many
Can you still hear me
Hear me asking
Where do I belong
Is there a vision
That I can call my own
Show me I'm

Chorus. ~Michael W. Smith

This song is exactly how I feel. My apologies if my posts have been redundant. However, they are my posts... Last night I was at an event, and while I was sitting there this song popped into my mind, and it fit. This is exactly how I have been feeling. Moving here, I have been able to start me life over, in a way, but I am still trying to find what fits. Am I ready to be in a home group? Not sure. I enjoy the people, but the actual group discussions and don't believe I am ready for. I am on the fence, being torn between the side I would like to be on and my insecurities. Do I let the insecurities win or do I fight? If I choose to fight, how long will I be able to put up this fight?

Last night I thought about my place and thought about the place I want to be. That brought me no where! Wait, nope, that left me on my patio swinging on my new swing. I enjoy my life currently. The steps I have been taking are good ones. That may not be the perfect steps, but we all need to start somewhere. If I push too hard, I will end up a mess, so I am taking it slow. Taking it slow with a smile on my face. Until I figure out what is right for me, I will still be wondering what my place in this world is. I am okay with that!