Amends

I did something today, at first I wasn't sure if I was doing the "right" thing, but in the end, I believe I did.

This afternoon, I was working on a proposal to host a show in Europe at the end of the year, and I just needed to get away for a couple minutes, but still work on it. I picked up the phone and called Chase Pitken and found my self asking for Craig Wheeler. Yes, I called Craig. I did this to congradulate him on receiving and offer from Wegmans. He was shocked to hear from me, but he seemed happy. We had a nice conversation, he asked what I was doing now and then he wanted to clear the air from two years ago. To me, there is nothing to clear - it was two years ago, and if I was still mad about things then: 1. I need to get a life and 2. I wouldn't be calling him to say best of luck in his future endeavourers. There is no reason to dislike someone for their actions that were years ago. We didn't exchange numbers and say "lets be bussom buddies;" it was a chat with a deeper meaning saying things are good and we still wish eachother the best even though we didn't end on good terms.

In the beginning, I was a bit unsure of my actions. At the end, I believe to took the right route.

my bad :(

I have to apologize for what I said in my morning post. I had mentioned a guy that I had a meeting with that gives me a headache...to say the least. When he arrived he asked me to meet him in the office I had set him up in. When I went in, there was a gift sitting on the desk for me, a late valentines gift. Thinking back, he called me on Valentine's Day to wish me a wonderful day and to hope that my evening would be spent with a great guy, I had thanked him and said there is no great guy - but I will have a great dinner myself. He and his wife went out and got me a beautfil glass box with dried flowers in the glass. The point of this, even though he can be a little rough around the edges, I do know he is a very kind person. He doesn't even know me that well, and he is very kind to me. Thank you Bill (even though you don't see this).

Smiles

Today was a great morning. I get out of the shower, open up my curtains to find that it had just started snowing. It was one of those mornings you wished it were a weekend so you could sit there, drink coffee and watch it snow. (I am not is Rochester anymore - it NEVER snows here.) But just knowing it was snowing, it just made you smile. Even Bart enjoyed sitting his little butt by the window and chancing snow flakes!

My drive to work, I threw in a CD I made two years ago title "Moving to Virginia" - I just wanted to hear what was on there. There was a song from Romeo and Juliet - and then I just started to think back on my Shakespeare class at Purdue - one of my favorite classes I have ever taken. Shakespeare reminds you of all the simple things in a relationship, such as "palm to palm is thy holy palmers kiss." Remember when we were little - it made your week when you held someones hand. Now, if I am dating a guy - how our hands fit together is huge! You want it to be a good fit - but also, you want to feel safe when holding his hand. It is a good feeling.

Also on my drive...my dad came into my mind. The other day, dad asked a very important question, "Why do people use an umbrella in the snow?" As I was driving, and it is snowing the beautiful snow, I see a wierdo using an umbrella. It isn't raining - it's snowing!! Snow doesn't get you nearly as wet - plus, who doesn't like snowflakes on their nose? No umbrella's people - go out there and have a little fun!

Once I got to work, I am walking in and I notice that Hot Guy from floor 7 was walking in front of me!!! This is always a good thing and if you are lucky, this happens once a month. This time - he talked to me!!! Hot Guy actually talked to me. He asked what was on floor five - I said a bunch of wierdos trying to have fun at work. In return I asked what was on floor 7, and he said a bunch or dorks. HEY, I BELONG ON FLOOR 7 THEN!!! He even has manners, he held the doors for me, and let me in the elevator first. Gentleman and Dork, can't beat that.

Well I hope the rest of my day can live up to my morning! I highly doubt it seeing that the guy that gives me the biggest headache will be in the office for a meeting from 12-5. FIVE HOURS OF BEING STUCK IN A ROOM WITH A SHORT OLD GUY THAT THINKS HE IS THE BEST THING THAT WALKED THE PLANET!! He kinda reminds me to dumber (one of the guys that moved mom and dad into their house two years ago - the one that thought that the world wouldn't/couldn't exist with out him!)

I am off!

HAVE A GREAT DAY!

Home

Home has always been defined as: home is where the heart is. This can mean many different places to different people. When you are younger, it is your parents house - where ever that might be. Home can be the town where you spent most of you childhood growing up before moving. It can be your dorm room when you are in college, or your apartment when you move out. Even your first house. Growing up, I have had many "homes" but one of them is shutting it's doors next month. Chase-Pitkin. I worked there for six years before moving over to Wegmans, giving me seven years with the "family". I remember my first interview, and what I wore, and why I wanted to work there (my brother worked there) - and now eight years later they are closing.

Chase-Pitkin became my life. Most of my friends worked there, it was the meeting place before heading out for the night, and it was where you went on your day off to see your friends. This place became my home, it became the place where I spent 90% of my time. If it weren't for Chase-Pitkin I wouldn't know or have been friends with Sean, William, Chris, Cook (you know you guys loved him), Andy (drunken Plumbing associate), Craig, Matt, Julie, and many many more.

Sean - thank goodness for Friendlies, Olive Garden and Britney Spears!
William - roommies - and our all night CP chats
Chris (aka cat or doc) - I am glad I met you before you left to work at the hospital.
Cook - (Franco too) paint sticks - who could hit harder - man the bruises I would get!
Andy - vodka in the water bottle, and the tool room (need I say more)
Craig - he was confindant that he could do anything that he put his mind to.
Matt - Uhaul - ready? "Pizza dudes got 30 seconds!"
Julie - rugs, rugs, and more rugs...and our ability to get all the hot plumbing and lumber guys!
Kyle - I couldn't stand your boss, and I enjoyed him getting in trouble for being a jerk! Thank you for letting your little sister tag along with the guys every week, which turned into every night!

Thanks for all the laughter, and the fights, and all the hugs. Chase-Pitkin may not have been our ideal place to work, but it is what brought us all together, and for that - I love it!

Words of Wisdom:
Remember to take time for yourself. Relax, listen to the music you like, go for a walk. Do nothing - no tv, no phone. Write in a notebook and see what comes out. It is amazing what you might have in your head, and you will never know unless you give yourself time to figure it out.

Part of your world

About two years ago I posted a blog on Kelly Land. Today, I was cleaning my place and one item that I cherish I rearranged, my bulletin board. I have had this since I was a little girl. I have never really used it as a bulletin board, it has always been my memory board, and today I changed it up. Even though I changed it, there are a couple items on there that have been there for years, and I don't foresee them coming down for a while.
Item number 1: My Indy500 pin. I don't know what year I was there, but I believe it was when we lived on Bending Oak Drive (which means it was before I hit 6th Grade)
Item number 2: My Purdue Patch - this I got when Kyle was at Purdue and I was in the 11th grade. It was on a pair of PJ bottoms and I tore it off one day when I was mad. So now it then went on my board and hasn't come off.
Item number 3: A poem written by a youth group friend about a retreat I had been on. It is a poem that makes you remember that you have to open up and let people into your life, or you who will you have to lean on?!
Item number 4: My Purdue pin - this I got at orientation with Mike and my Dad! HIGH FIVE!
Item number 5: A picture of Rudie - one dad took of Rudie laying by the pond. This picture is very faded because it used to be in my window - and it moved to my board. One of my favorites of him!
Item number 6: A Happy Anniversary card - It was valentines day, I was a sophmore at Purdue - and of course wasn't dating. My friend Jay was on his way to pick up his girl for dinner and brought my a pink flower with that card, and said "sorry, they didn't have one that said Happy Valentine's Day" - I will never forget that. He was a friend that I will never forget - he never forgot about me, and made sure I knew it. I just hope I did the same for him.
Item numer 7: Serene (college roomate) made each of us a index card with our names on it for our boards in our dorm. It has gone from my dorm board to my board here.

I mentioned before that I had written about Kelly Land, well as I rearranged some things - I brought me into Kelly Land. I was going thought all these great memories as I cleaned up a bit and it made me realize, it is time I start making more memories. I was reading past blogs - and they are all consistant. They all talk about work. So my self resolution is to get out there, meet new people, make new memories. Now is the hard part - how?

Words of Wisdom:
Everyone has faults, instead of being annoyed by those, learn to cherrish those - for that is the first thing you will miss once that they are gone. If you learn to love those faults, then they will always be there.

Post 200 - Routine

Yesteryday I got home from my second show. I say my second, becuase I have helped out at another division's show. This show went well, I really can't complain. This show was more tiring than the other two. We didn't really have late nights with the "clients" The latest I went back to my room was 9:30, but man did it feel like it was 2. Any who, I am back home and have slept about 16 hours and am back into my routine. I am sitting here drinking coffee and getting ready to go grocery shopping. I was going to go food shopping before the show - but there was no time. I hate grocery shopping, but I also hate not having food in the house.

I thought I would catch eveyone up on Bart. He is doing well. He really missed me while I was gone. Hasn't left my side yet. Cute, but getting annoying. I am starting to feel bad that I need to step out for an hour to get food. He is getting bigger - but still cute. Dad says he still has his wussy meow! And he does. But in all reality - he is a wuss. He is afraid to go outside by himself. I can leave the screen door wide open and he will just sit there and watch - and when he hears people in the distance he sprints to hide under the bed! He is one little scardey cat! But he is my little scardey cat! It is really funny - if you could see it. I will even have the screen closed, and he will still do it!

Well I am off to catch up on my blog reading and work on the place! Hey Willy - you know the clock you got for our apt, you still have it where you and K live - I got the same one for my living room. Dorky - i know, but I never said I wasn't a dork!

Miss you guys!!

Words of Wisdom -
Don't let anyone intimidate you, no matter who they are! Stand up straight, smile, and BE YOU! If you let others intimidate you, you will go no where, and be no one. Everyone has a wonderful attribute - let it shine.

Walkaway Joe

I love this song...I know it seems depressing, but I love it. Although, I would never wish a "walkaway joe" on any person. I guess I love this song, because I would love to think this could only be a song, and not anything that would happen in real life. But then that would makes me a dreamer. Yea, I can dream - even though I know the real world is just like this song. I love music, for all reasons - I just love it!

Walkaway Joe

Momma told her baby, girl take it real slow
Girl told her momma hey I really gotta go
He's waitin' in the car
Momma said girl you won't get far
Thus are the dreams of an average Jane
Ninety miles an hour down a lovers lane
On a tank of dreams
Oh if she could've only seen
But fate's got cards that it don't want to show
And that boy's just

A walkaway Joe
Born to be a leaver
Tell you from the word go, destined to deceive her
He's a wrong kinda paradise
She's gonna know it in a matter of time
That boy's just a walkaway Joe

Now just a little while into Abilene
Pulls into a station and he robs it clean
She's waitin' in the car
Underneath the Texaco star
She only wanted love didn't bargain for this
She can't help but love him for the way he is
She's only seventeen
And there ain't no reasoning
So she'll ride this ride as far as it can go
Cause that boy's just

A walkaway Joe
Born to be a leaver
Tell you from the word go, destined to deceive her
He's a wrong kinda paradise
She's gonna know it in a matter of time
That boy's just a walkaway Joe

Somewhere in a roadside motel room
Alone in the silence she wakes up too soon
And reaches for his arm
But she'll just keep reachin' on
For the cold hard truth revealed what it had known
That boy's just

A walkaway Joe
Born to be a leaver
Tell you from the word go, destined to deceive her
He's a wrong kinda paradise
She's gonna know it in a matter of time
That boy's just a walkaway Joe

~Trisha Yearwood & Don Henley

What a Girl Wants

Last night I was talking to my cousin, who I haven’t spoken with in a long time. We go through our times of being great friends and not speaking at all. For no reason really, that is just the way it has always been. Any who, the first question out of her mouth was “How’s Mike?” My answer “Mad at me, well at least he was the last time I saw him.” She knew from that statement that things we over. We got chatting about our “adult” boyfriends. Both of us hasn’t really dated all that much. Neither of us are the game daters…where you go from date to date and date a bunch of guys. Both of us, in a way, want the fairy tale. So we went through the guys we dated:

First there were Brian and Chris. Brian and Jessie lasted about two years. Chris and I were about two years as well. These boys, man did we like them, and boy did we think we had our fairy tails. Brian was too smothering, he gave Jessie everything she wanted but there was no sense of surprise or adventure. Chris, he was more about looks and if you know anything about me – I am defiantly not that. So we all parted and went our separate ways.

Second there were Blake and Craig. This is the point of dating where I would say Jessie and I were on crack, yes, crack. WHAT WERE WE THINKING!!!! Blake was too over the top for Jessie – but Jessie had fun with the chase in the beginning! Craig, he just had a temper, but I enjoyed all the walks we would take and talk about life. In the end, it just came down to – what the hell were we thinking!!

Last – Sean and Mike. Sean lives 150 miles away from Jessie, and seems to be afraid of a relationship. Mike lives 5 miles away from me and seems to be afraid of relationships. Who wants to walk on eggshells all there lives?

What we want? That is simple. In a relationship – there should be honesty, friendship, laughter, and communication. As a plus, being a girl, to find a guy that isn’t all about the looks. Yes, it is great to look nice for the guy you like, but there are times when wearing sweatshirts and jeans are a must!

Networking

I have learned something - do not network at a bar when your boyfriend is there. I met this guy at a bar that is moving to the DC area and would like to find a job working in event planning - so I told him that is basically what I do...bla bla bla and gave him my business card. Well the boyfriend saw that, got pissed and left the bar. He thought I was flirting and trading numbers. One - I would NEVER do that when I was dating someone, especially when I was with a guy I really liked. Two - did he have any trust in me? We were both pissed...and to him that meant time to break up. Hell, why would you want to talk about things anyway - and he wondered why I wanted to make sure we communicated! So that is that. All girls out there, do not Network at a bar when your boyfriend is there. You think you are being nice getting to know someone in your field - but no - you are getting ready for a break up!

But I am not the only one that had a crappy weekend - so did Willy! I am really sorry to hear that your car was stolen. That really sucks. Too bad we don't live close enough for a vent night. You can tell me all about work and your car - and I could tell you why guys suck!

Well, Josh and I are hanging out on Wednesday - so that will be nice. I might go skiing with him this weekend if it snows - and if I have the money - and if I don't have to work. KYLE DON'T LAUGH! I CAN SKI, I AM JUST NOT AS GOOD AS YOU!